Wishful Penny

The phrase... "What will be will be"

So if that is the case are we supposed to wait? Wait it out. One day it will just be. We are not supposed to leave the glass slipper for the prince to find? We are not supposed to wink at the guy? Flare our nostrils (inside joke!)?

So fairytales... they exist or they do not?


When I was little my daddy used to give me a penny to throw into the fountains where ever we went. I would close my eyes real tight. Turn my back to the fountain, sometimes I would face the fountain. But with my back turned, I would squeeze that penny between my fingers and hold it close to my heart. I would think real hard. Take a deep breathe. Smile. And toss it over my shoulder into the fountain. Dad would ask me what I wished for, and I always shook my head and giggled. I told him it would not come true if I told him what I wanted. And he told me, if I did not tell someone who would help make it come true? So one day outside of a restaurant in Corona. I did my usual routine. Eyes closed tight. Back turned. Penny squeezed between my fingers and real close to my heart. Thought real hard. Took a deep breathe. Smiled. And tossed it over my shoulder. And this time when Dad asked me what I wished for... I smiled and giggled and said "I wished for butterflies."

Well here I am. Years later. And some days I find myself standing next to that fountain. I have a penny in my hand. And I start to squeeze my eyes real tight. But then I take that penny and I put it back in my wallet. And I walk away. And it's not because I told my dad years ago that I wanted butterflies and I never exactly got that.  BUT... today guys do not stand by the fountain asking the girl closing her eyes real tight. Turned back. Penny squeezed between her fingers and close to her heart. Thinking real hard. Taking a deep breathe. Smiling. And tossing it over her shoulder what she wished for.

Sometimes I do not want to wish for something when I do not always know how to tell the people around me what I wished for. Especially when it seems that asking for it isn't the proper way to get what we want. NO... instead we stand in the corner staring at what we want like a bunch of creepers LOL. But seriously, every time I have asked for something. I get a WHY? Or a "Not right now". Or a "we have forever to figure it out." Or "you're an awesome girl."
Well give me a bag full of pennies and I will stand outside a fountain one day and toss penny after penny after penny into that fountain. I will make a wish. And maybe I will just keep that wish to myself. But then again... my dad made a great point. If we do not tell people what we wish for, how are they supposed to come true?

Here's to wishing. & Closing my eyes real tight. Turning my back. Squeezing the penny between my fingers and holding it close to my heart. Think real hard. Take a deep breathe. Smile. And tossing that penny over my shoulder.

So ask me... ask me what I wished for. Ask me what that penny meant the day I stood with my eyes closed tight. Back turned. Fingers squeezing the penny and holding it close to my heart. Thinking real hard. Taking deep breathes. Smiling. And tossing the penny over my shoulder. Ask me what I wished for.

Comments

  1. Anonymous17 November 2011 at 18:24

    You should buy the book, "The Wishful Penny" by J.J. Young :)

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