Mornings with Bee

Today I came across a picture of a young woman, with the caption "Ladies, the smarter you are, the more likely you are to be single." Well that is JUST great! If being a student in a career focused program is not stressful enough, now being smart means being single [or so they  say]. I have been told a few times that education is a turn off, no man wants a smart girl. Come ON!? Seriously?! So I sought out the opinion of a guy, we will call him Jason . Apparently education, smart- ness , or career is relative to the individual. I guess that means that it is not an absolute... Just because a woman is smart does not mean that she is going to be forever single. Rather, she is going to be more aware of her needs and meeting the needs of her partner. Jason  actually is the combination of multiple guys [at least a combination of their perspective]. What it came down to is guys like it simple . Well boys, guys, dudes, men, etc. I hate to break it to you but girls are a little les...

Prayer is one of the most, sorry --the most-- powerful tool in life. I personally prefer the Serenity Prayer.... God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,  the courage to change the things I can, the wisdom to know the difference.  I have been praying it on the daily, sometimes twice a day. I have to say that it is peaceful. It also allows for reframing and growth and maturity. It is also in these moments that I have recently been able to connect with the "how" God is answering my prayers. I think sometimes few people are able to connect with this... but I will not go into that in this blog.  I have noticed change, in myself. A rebirth, maybe? A maturity, definitely. A growth, absolutely. In an attempt to connect a biblical understanding of growth... that is to understand that change appropriately happens. Interesting enough a verse that I have recently dissected came up, as well as a statement that someone I hold relatively high in the...

Found this in my drafts and while I wrote it in college it seems interesting to share, as it reminds me to speak up about something, even if there are disagreements. * This is the extra credit assignment I wrote from a lecture I attended last week. It was about Women of Islam: Liberated or Subjugated. After attending the lecture, I had this moment of strong emotion in the direction of not knowing what to think. For so long I believed everything I saw. And a lot of what I saw was wrong. I was not always taught the difference between right and wrong but was expected to know the difference. I saw the way the elite, upper hand wanted me to see. I now realized that at times I conformed to what I was supposed to believe instead of believing what I wanted to believe. I saw the physicality of the veil, but never thought to think about the meaning behind it. It goes back to not even knowing the real definition of Caucasian. The "White Man" might think he is always right, ...

The last time I was this sick I ended up first on the floor of my apartment, second in the emergency room, and third in surgery; all within about 24 hours. At the time I took it as God's grace reminding me to slow it down, take it easy, and breathe. I keep reminding myself of this same mindset as I lay staring at my ceiling for the last week. Gratefully I have managed to get myself out of bed and moving the last few days. While there is definitely a bug making its way around Southern California, and it got me. It still reminds me of the importance to slow down and appreciate life from a new perspective. Thankfully this time I only ended up at the doctor's office twice, rather than in surgery. Almost three years ago, when I found myself in the hospital, I was on the verge of graduating from college and earning my bachelors in arts. I was so focused and stressed out about making it out that I overworked myself. Little did I know that to be honest, I was going to be graduating n...

Our brain is wired with neurons which lead to action potentials, like a highway. You get on the onramp or the thought and the highway takes you to the destination or the action. So to say the least every time you experience something there are neurons being fired rapidly through your body. I read that "Smiling releases endorphins and make you feel better, even if it is faked." Action potentials sent to make yourself smile are sending back other action potentials to make yourself feel better. So I tried it. I had a pretty rough day this past weekend and I thought to myself, it is worth a shot. What I thought would just be a silly game, turned into a mindful exercise of being aware of happiness through a smile. I forced myself to smile from my house all the way to work, about a 20 mile drive and with traffic about 40 minutes. It worked! It definitely made me feel so much better. I started to just focus on what was current, where I was right now. I was aware of the muscles in ...

It is the day after the biggest game of the year in football, at least it is to some regards. It just so happens to be the day after my 25th birthday. For some time, I have been in a funk, I have been figuring out what is next, I have been swallowed in my "Quarter of a Life Crisis." One of the things I have been working through is RECOVERY. The process of sobriety, recovery. Through both the process of personal recovery, as well as educational endeavors I have come across same concept over and over and over again. It is that an addict is never fully recovered, they are always recovering. Recovering is the verb of recover which means to return to a normal state of mind, health, and strength. Makes sense then that the addict is recovering and never recovered.     I was reminded of the recovering process again when I was looking around Russell Wilson's website. He said on his page that he is a "recovering bully" . Wow! Thank you Russell for sharing this story, an...