Peaceful Places
Today was super hot out in the central valley of California. And my sister needed to stop at the cemetery on the way home to pay her respects to a family who was laying to rest their grandmother, mother, and friend. And it just so happened to be the place that a dear friend's boyfriend rests peacefully. So while my sister went to the little chapel after she dropped me off at his headstone, I sat there in the grass talking.
I have always been fond of cemeteries, and for very important reasons that make sense for me. And we all have those things that make sense for us, and while others might not always understand, it is for us to know and understand. Cemeteries are my peaceful place. And today while talking to the angel I realized why I enjoy them so much.
No one bothers me at them, I am left alone to be with my thoughts.
I can cry and no one will ask me what is wrong.
I can talk to myself, while talking to someone who will listen and be patient.
And all the cemeteries I have been to have this extremely calming air around them. No matter the chaos that exists outside them, inside I am completely and totally at peace.
So I talked, and he listened. And I realized that he is living through every single person that he has ever touched, either before or after his passing. He has changed me and helped me to appreciate the world in which I live in, in a way that others may not understand. And I talked some more and laughed and cried, and was able to let all the things I have been questioning come out and I laid them all out there right in front of me and I decided what I wanted to do with each one of them.
I was having trouble with the negative people in my life, and I realized after talking for almost a half hour that I am stronger in my positive ways to deflect the negativity of others. And that we each are given a choice and no choice is better or worse than the other. They are simply just choices, I can choose to be negative- it is always a plausible choice. Or I can choose to be positive-it is always a plausible choice. And the way that positivity may make me feel may be different from how positivity may make others feel. And it is a CHOICE. We are all allowed to choose the path in which we want to walk in life. And while I know, from experience, that choosing the positive way has made my life so much better and I am so much happier, it is for others to choose and find out for themselves.
And in the mean time of them finding out the way to positivity, their choices are their own and mine are my own. Because who are they to decide that I cannot be happy? Or that my happiness is meant to be achieved through negativity? It is not their choice. It is my own.
Where is your peaceful place? Where can you find that place to let go and let loose and be totally at peace with yourself to come to these realizations that your life is your own and the lives of others only cross your path, they do not decide it. It may change because of them, and that is your decision to decide.
I have always been fond of cemeteries, and for very important reasons that make sense for me. And we all have those things that make sense for us, and while others might not always understand, it is for us to know and understand. Cemeteries are my peaceful place. And today while talking to the angel I realized why I enjoy them so much.
No one bothers me at them, I am left alone to be with my thoughts.
I can cry and no one will ask me what is wrong.
I can talk to myself, while talking to someone who will listen and be patient.
And all the cemeteries I have been to have this extremely calming air around them. No matter the chaos that exists outside them, inside I am completely and totally at peace.
So I talked, and he listened. And I realized that he is living through every single person that he has ever touched, either before or after his passing. He has changed me and helped me to appreciate the world in which I live in, in a way that others may not understand. And I talked some more and laughed and cried, and was able to let all the things I have been questioning come out and I laid them all out there right in front of me and I decided what I wanted to do with each one of them.
I was having trouble with the negative people in my life, and I realized after talking for almost a half hour that I am stronger in my positive ways to deflect the negativity of others. And that we each are given a choice and no choice is better or worse than the other. They are simply just choices, I can choose to be negative- it is always a plausible choice. Or I can choose to be positive-it is always a plausible choice. And the way that positivity may make me feel may be different from how positivity may make others feel. And it is a CHOICE. We are all allowed to choose the path in which we want to walk in life. And while I know, from experience, that choosing the positive way has made my life so much better and I am so much happier, it is for others to choose and find out for themselves.
And in the mean time of them finding out the way to positivity, their choices are their own and mine are my own. Because who are they to decide that I cannot be happy? Or that my happiness is meant to be achieved through negativity? It is not their choice. It is my own.
Where is your peaceful place? Where can you find that place to let go and let loose and be totally at peace with yourself to come to these realizations that your life is your own and the lives of others only cross your path, they do not decide it. It may change because of them, and that is your decision to decide.
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